Saturday, August 31, 2013

Just stopped by to say....

Good thing I addressed your card to the wrong place....because it's late anyway haha
Love you!

Friday, August 30, 2013

3 Weeks

I wasn't going to put up a post for 3 weeks.  I mean, how much can you hear pretty much the same crap?  But it makes me feel a little better (while also making me realize it's only been halfway)
Baby still sleeps pretty much through the night.  I put her down around 10:30 and it takes a while for her to pass out.  Then she gets up usually around 6-7.  It is amazing, don't get me wrong....but I'm afraid that even if she can sleep all night, she's not going to just out of habit.  I'm sooo hoping that's not the case.
My body is trying its hardest to get used to this new sleep schedule.  Now I usually end up being up for the day when she wakes up at 6.  I know that's what a lot of people wake up at, and I used to get up at 7 naturally...but than I ruined myself and started sleeping in with Hailey till about 9 or so, so now my body is like WTF you doing go back to bed!!!
My Wii says that Baby B is gaining weight.  It said she weighs about 9lbs.  Which is defiantly more then her 7 when she was born.  The Wii is usually pretty accurate.  But to me, she still looks the same as at birth, like a turtle/old man with no meat on her at all.  I know part of that is because I'm with her all the time, so it's harder to notice the change, but man I hope she gets some fat cheeks soon haha.
It hasn't been too bad with Matt at work.  Hailey has been a little more clingy, but that's it.  Well, that and Matt's more tired haha.
I'm curious.  They say you're not supposed to work out or push yourself too hard for the first 6 weeks.  That you can walk as long as you take it easy.  I wonder what's too hard and how close to 6 weeks you can walk more.  The LA fair is opening this weekend.  We may not go THIS weekend but I don't want to wait till my 6 weeks because it'll be pretty much over...and all the good stuff will be gone haha. (my 6 weeks is Sept. 20 I believe)  So I wonder, could I go do all that walking as long as I took breaks?  I'd have to take breaks to feed the baby anyway.
Hmm...we'll see

Wednesday, August 28, 2013


Time to look for the good in things.
I'm not going to lie....I have baby blues pretty bad.  So in order to help myself feel better, I'm going to look for the things that I'm thankful for.
First in this sticky situation I'm thankful that, for the most part, Brooklyn is a good baby.  I know she could be a LOT worse.  She sleeps most of the night, she doesn't usually sit and just cry.  And I'm recovering (or seem to be) pretty quickly, faster then with Hailey.
I'm thankful for Hailey, who could also been a lot worse in this situation.  Don't get me wrong, she has her moments. But she loves to help and be a big sister.
I'm thankful that my mom was able to come for a week and help me right from the start (even though she missed the delivery because it happened so fast haha).  She also lets me text her whenever about the stupidest things.
The little things, thankful for not having to get up every hour to pee anymore, my boppy, anime that allows me to escape the real world for a while, and of course chocolate!
And the biggest thing, I'm thankful for my husband.  Without Matt I'd be falling apart.  He's my rock even when I'm being completely unreasonable haha.

Now the next thing I need to focus on is weight loss.  Since your not supposed to workout till 6 weeks, I need to try to start changing my diet.....way easier said then done.


Thursday, August 22, 2013

Week Two

Whelp, tomorrow is 2 weeks.
Usually feels more like today is because I went into the hospital Thursday night thinking I was coming home, and I had to stay. So the two days kind of run together.
This week wasn't much different.  I'm trying my best to not count down to the 6 week mark, but I can't help it.  Once again, it's going fast, yet very slow.
She still sleeps from 10-11 to about 5-7.  Yesterday she even slept till 8! But as much as I love the fact that she sleeps, when she gets up it usually means I'm up for the day.  I know that's what most people get up at, but my body just isn't used to it.  Hailey has always been a good sleeper and used to sleep in till about 9 or so, and so did I (because I could haha).  Now it's suddenly different and my body is like WTF you doing to me?!
Emotional wise, I'm still pretty much off my rocker.  When I think I may be going back to normal and feel fine, BAM it hits almost harder.  Almost like my mind is trolling me.  Go figure.
With Hailey I remember kind of snapping out of how I felt at a month....but that feels so far away and my head can't take it anymore.  Sigh, oh well I guess.
The end of two weeks also means the return of Matt to work, and that terrifies me.  I'm sure I can do it, but it's just the idea to a very anxious mind that if I do end up needing him, he's 20 minutes away at the fastest.
It'll be fine.

Thursday, August 15, 2013

First Week

Tomorrow it'll be a week since Brooklyn was born.
A week.....already?
Have you ever had that where when you think "omg 6 weeks?! That's so far away!" yet the week is already over making it only 5 weeks.  I have that bad right now.  I cannot WAIT for things to go back to....well "normal"  our new normal.  Which.....scares me a little haha.
Mom just left.  This is when I wish they lived closer so when I need her she can run over.  But I'm very grateful she got to come.  Thanks to my wonderful husband.
Another thing I'm grateful for is she is sleeping really well at night right now *knocks on wood*  I put her down at 10:30-11 and she sleeps till about 6.  Sometimes a little earlier sometimes later.
Odd thing is, she can go so long at night, but in the day she always acts hungry.  We struggle to get her to wait even two hours sometimes.
Hailey has been really good so far.  We did have one moment so far where baby did something cute cause she's little and Hailey wanted to too, but she was just too big.  Broke my heart.....and I know it won't be the last.  But she claims to like her.  She was even telling me not to touch her cord because it would hurt her.
Matt also still has a week off work to help me.  I'm very grateful for all the help I've gotten.
But of course, got a case of the baby blues.....but I'm not going to go into me you don't want to hear it haha.
One week down!

Monday, August 12, 2013


Well hello there
As you may have heard, I just recently had a baby.  And man, was it an interesting time.
This time around was defiantly different from last time.
I was late again....or so the doctor said.  Matt and I think they got the due date wrong and we actually forced her to come early.
The doctor had been telling us that she was going to be a big baby.  He didn't want to wait super long over my due date because of that.  So I had to go in and get medicine on my cervix Thursday night at about 6. 
I guess I should give a TMI warning.  I dunno what is "too far" so beware haha.
Anynoodle....So I had the leave the medicine in till 4am and that is when they'd start Pitocin.
I was already getting contractions before the medicine came out.  When they took it out and checked me at 4 I was at a one.
The contractions got REALLY bad.  Worse then the ones I had with Hailey.
They never really came in and checked my progress (which I think made my doctor mad) so when they came in at 7 for shift change I told them to check me to see if I could get my epidural.
I was at a 4 so I could, but the guy who does it was in surgery so I'd have to wait for him to get out.
They gave me the little version in my IV but it didn't do anything for me.
They were getting things set up for my epidural and I was contracting like crazy.  I needed to go to the bathroom.  That was basically my water breaking.  After sitting I couldn't get back up.  Baby was on it's way!  I thought I had felt pressure down there, but I was sure it couldn't happen that fast.  I was just a 4!  But after squatting like that to pee, that did it.
My body was pushing her out!  The nurse there was an RN but was new to babies and I don't think she got that I meant pushing like baby coming not pushing like through the pain or whatever because she was like "oh you mean baby?!"
She checked and baby was RIGHT there.  They called the doctor and had the emergency doctor on call.  The nurses were all scrambling.
Doctor came in and he was annoyed at them for not keeping up on it.  He kept telling them to get him his gloves.  They were trying to tie his smock thingy, but he kept saying there was no time.
Five minutes later she was out.  If that....born at about 8
I went from a 4 to 10 in about an hour.
So I delivered her with no Epidural....which was an interesting experience.  Not what I had wanted, but it was nice not to have the after results of it.
I just remember coming to the realization that it was the baby coming, and they weren't going to give me the epidural, so I just started pushing because everyone always says the pain goes away like right after baby is out.  I know I shouldn't of helped it along while doctor wasn't there but....I was so done haha.
Afterwards I swear the doctor gave me a tranquilizer or something.  I basically passed out afterwards.  They had the baby on my stomach and were trying to get me to rub her clean with them and stuff, but she kept rolling backwards because I couldn't hold her.  Finally the doctor told the nurses to take her.
The doctors office doesn't seem to communicate well, and he's not much of a people person it seems.  But I will say when it came to delivery and all that, he was very good.  Much better then the guy who delivered Hailey.
So now, we're a family of 4

Tuesday, August 6, 2013


I was going to post on Facebook, but I thought this would be better so it's not a super long thing, and you don't have to read it if you don't really care haha.
Went to the doctor today.  Since I've gone over my due date I had to have an ultrasound checking my fluid levels (which is kind of weird because I went over longer with Hailey and never had a fluid check).  He said it's on the lower end so he wants to make sure we have baby this week.
I hate these words (I know I'm immature) so bare with me hahah.  He checked me to see if I was dilated at all and I was at like a 1....and my cervix is still pretty damn hard.  He said that's not really "inducible" so what he's going to do is I have to go into the hospital Thursday night and get like a patch thing of medicine put on my cervix to soften it.  Then the next morning they'll start the Pitocin and pop my water blah blah induction stuff.
I'm a little bummed I have to be induced.  I HATE hospitals and only want to be there for as long as I have to be.  That and I was soo sure it was coming early.....I guess that's what I get.
On the bright side of knowing when I'm going in, it's easier to get my momma out here, and getting things set up like the bed and whatnot.
So time to go do some laundry and dig out Hailey's old crap.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Dr. Says

Well.... no baby yet.  Looks like I'll go over my due date AGAIN.
I guess that's what I get for praying it would come early.  My due date is tomorrow and unless something magic happens I'm not going to be on time.
Ya ya, I've been walking and all that jazz.  I don't know how much faith I hold in that one because I walked with Hailey and she was almost two weeks late.
It's also apparently a big baby.  I don't know how much faith I put in his diagnosis of that either, he doesn't like to share information.   Let's just say the doctor has been annoying us this time around.
But barely 1/2 centimeter and hard cervix makes for a very disappointing doctors visit.  Next week I'll have to get another ultrasound to check fluid levels and he may start me then.  I hope it just comes on it's own.
Well, I had other stuff I wanted to say, but I don't remember.  If I remember I'll come back and edit this haha.
So, pray baby comes asap! :)
I would put up an ultrasound picture, but our tech isn't very good and gets like NO pictures. Oh well
Here is my beautiful Hailey instead *wink*