Saturday, March 31, 2012

End of March/Earth Hour

Can you believe that today is the last day in March?  I can't!  That also means my birthday is in 5 days...
March has been kind of crazy.  I honestly don't remember much of the beginning of it.  Than (as you know already) my family came and we had a grand ol time!!  And since they've been gone things have been just a blur.  Matt's been working to catch up for the time he took off.  Hailey had a doctors appointment that she always hehe.  We've all had killer colds.  And I've been knocked off my workout/diet routine.  I know it's my own fault, but give me a break!  There is so much snack food here right now. 
Also, today is Earth Hour day.  I know most people won't do it.  It's considered a pain in the toosh...which I can see, especially if you have a lot of kids.  But Earth Hour is when you turn off your lights for an hour starting at 8:30PM.  Some major cities do it - turning off all their fancing show lights (of course leaving on the lights needed for security or safety).  I remember making Matt do it last year and breastfeeding Hailey with a flashlight. 
Even though it is a pain, I encourage you to do it.  Play a game with flashlights or tell scary/funny stories.  Light some candles and pretend to camp out.  Be creative :) 
Looking forward to April!


Monday, March 26, 2012

Family Vacation

Mathew, being the wonderful man that he is, saved money to give me the best birthday present ever (given it was an early present).  He flew my sister and her girls out to visit me.  They have never been here before and it was awesome to be able to help them get a couple new firsts in their lives.  Also, my parents came to join in the fun and surprised me also, so it was like a big family reunion!  We finally got a new family picture taken.  The last one that officially had us ALL in it was when Sadie and Jaxson were little.  I think it was their first Christmas.  We also took new family pictures for everyone, we even took a photo with just us girls and the boys. 
We had a busy week!  First we went to the Aquarium, than we had two days at Disneyland, and we slipped in a trip to Venice Beach.  We were planning one more thing (either the zoo or Matt's aunt's cabin in Lake Arrowhead), but we were all tired and getting sick so we just had a cozy lazy day.  Man was the house crowded than haha - but it was awesome!
Now, everyone has gone home.....even though Kimberly left some stuff here hahaha....and now it is way to quiet.  I woke up after Kim had left and came downstairs and just sat in the silence.  It was very sad.  I mean, I like my private time too, but I love having family around. 
Between two cameras, we took a ton of pictures.  I picked some that I liked and put them on instead of posting a ton on here too, I'm just going to give a link to the Facebook Album and you can go check them out!

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

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Sunday, March 11, 2012

Want to go Shopping?!

Isn't that just sad?  Yet another pair of jeans ripped.  Now why do my jeans seem to rip quickly.  I really don't understand the phrase "hard on clothes"  all I do is wear them haha :)
Anyway, as of right now a ton of my clothes are on their way out.  They are either getting holes, stretched out from me wearing them pregnant, or both.  I'm always hesitant to buy clothes because I want to lose weight first so I don't have to buy more again.  But I think I'm going to have to get some to hold me over.  Especially now that it's getting warmer.  I have two decent short sleeve shirts and one pair of jeans. 
I LOVE shopping, but man does it usually take a hit on my self esteem.  I have a gift card to this store that is kind of like Hollister Co. in the fact that all of their clothes are sooo small.  Their size medium would be a small everywhere else.  So I can never find anything there.  I did buy a hat from there though haha.
So, anyone wanna go shopping with me?!  I think it's fun to just try on random'd be surprised what ends up looking good on you :)


Sunday, March 4, 2012

Your Body

Hello.  I just wanted to talk a little about body image but I don't even know where to start.  I just watched a video on YouTube on a channel I love called TheMomsView (I'll put a link at the end of the post).  It was talking about loving yourself for who you are and treating your body right and getting a mindset of confidence.  I really loved the message and I agree with what they said.
But, it is hard.  Trust me, I know that all too well.  I feel like I have a person in my head telling me how crappy I am.  If I get any confidence built up, I feel like it just gets pushed out by bad thoughts.  How do I change this?  I don't know.  I wish I knew.
They make a good point in the video where they say if you get down on yourself, than you will probably always get down on yourself no matter how much weight you lose.  The thing that sucks is that there is no magic answer (even though I really wish there was).   Everyone I hear says if you excerise and eat right you feel so much better.  It's that first jump off...the first week, or even month, of making the big changes that is hard.  That's my biggest hurdle.  I don't know how I'd feel if I changed because I have yet to get over that hurdle even once.  But I really want to...especially now that I have Hailey.  Not only do I want to be fit so I can play with her without getting tired, but I want her to grow up with a better role model than what I am at now.
My confidence has always been low.  I think that's why I seemed to push away any friends I had.  I don't know.  I think I want to set a new goal.  I want to change before I see old friends and family again.  It's too late to get too much done before I see my parents again.  But we're hoping to go to Utah for the 24th of July again this year (of course not set in stone yet, but working on it).  And I want to meet up with old friends and go to the family party and have confidence and like the way I look.  I want to not worry what people may or may not be saying about me.  I want to get in the pool without hiding in a towel as much as possible and hiding in the corner.
It is going to be really hard.  Confidence has always been one of my (if not the weakest) weakest points.  So if you have any advice let me know. :)