Hello. I just wanted to talk a little about body image but I don't even know where to start. I just watched a video on YouTube on a channel I love called TheMomsView (I'll put a link at the end of the post). It was talking about loving yourself for who you are and treating your body right and getting a mindset of confidence. I really loved the message and I agree with what they said.
But, it is hard. Trust me, I know that all too well. I feel like I have a person in my head telling me how crappy I am. If I get any confidence built up, I feel like it just gets pushed out by bad thoughts. How do I change this? I don't know. I wish I knew.
They make a good point in the video where they say if you get down on yourself, than you will probably always get down on yourself no matter how much weight you lose. The thing that sucks is that there is no magic answer (even though I really wish there was). Everyone I hear says if you excerise and eat right you feel so much better. It's that first jump off...the first week, or even month, of making the big changes that is hard. That's my biggest hurdle. I don't know how I'd feel if I changed because I have yet to get over that hurdle even once. But I really want to...especially now that I have Hailey. Not only do I want to be fit so I can play with her without getting tired, but I want her to grow up with a better role model than what I am at now.
My confidence has always been low. I think that's why I seemed to push away any friends I had. I don't know. I think I want to set a new goal. I want to change before I see old friends and family again. It's too late to get too much done before I see my parents again. But we're hoping to go to Utah for the 24th of July again this year (of course not set in stone yet, but working on it). And I want to meet up with old friends and go to the family party and have confidence and like the way I look. I want to not worry what people may or may not be saying about me. I want to get in the pool without hiding in a towel as much as possible and hiding in the corner.
It is going to be really hard. Confidence has always been one of my (if not the weakest) weakest points. So if you have any advice let me know. :)
https://www.youtube.com/user/TheMomsView
~hyuu!
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Monday, February 27, 2012
My Hair is Drying
I'm sitting here letting my hair air dry because I've noticed that it seems to be softer, and I damage my hair a lot with blowdrying and than flat ironing it.
Today was the first day I lifted weights without Matt there to help me. I think I did ok, but I know I would of done better if he would of been telling me how to correct my form when I get tired lol. I have borrowed P90X and decided to try it. But the only weights I have are 8lbs and that's heavy for me, so I decided to try to get used to lifting them by doing a different weight lifting one first. I'm glad I did. They are still kind of heavy depending on the workout, but they are not as hard as they used to be. Now I'll admit, I'm a little nervous based on what everyone says, but I'll just work as hard as I can and get through it. If I get through it working myself as hard as I can, even if it's not up to par with the videos, I'll be happy. Than I'll know I could go through it again and try to improve if I want. Matt and I have also decided that before I start (hopefully that I will turn into a we haha) we'll take before pictures. Scary!
I also need to work on my diet more. I mean, I haven't been as bad as I used to be. We haven't gotten any of the home bake french fries, no potato chips, no soda, and still no McDonalds. But my problem is how much I eat. I LOVE snacking, especially if I'm bored.
My videos have been boring lately (I'm sure). Matt has been working a lot. And just as it was getting warmer to head to the beach, it rains today. Matt says for sure in March we'll go to Disneyland. I still enjoy doing the videos though. I know a lot of people don't watch them. And no one made a video response to my video :( haha And my editing program makes me want to scream. So why is it still fun? I don't know :) but it is!
Well I'm going to go brush through my foofy hair. Aloha!
~Hyuu!
Today was the first day I lifted weights without Matt there to help me. I think I did ok, but I know I would of done better if he would of been telling me how to correct my form when I get tired lol. I have borrowed P90X and decided to try it. But the only weights I have are 8lbs and that's heavy for me, so I decided to try to get used to lifting them by doing a different weight lifting one first. I'm glad I did. They are still kind of heavy depending on the workout, but they are not as hard as they used to be. Now I'll admit, I'm a little nervous based on what everyone says, but I'll just work as hard as I can and get through it. If I get through it working myself as hard as I can, even if it's not up to par with the videos, I'll be happy. Than I'll know I could go through it again and try to improve if I want. Matt and I have also decided that before I start (hopefully that I will turn into a we haha) we'll take before pictures. Scary!
I also need to work on my diet more. I mean, I haven't been as bad as I used to be. We haven't gotten any of the home bake french fries, no potato chips, no soda, and still no McDonalds. But my problem is how much I eat. I LOVE snacking, especially if I'm bored.
My videos have been boring lately (I'm sure). Matt has been working a lot. And just as it was getting warmer to head to the beach, it rains today. Matt says for sure in March we'll go to Disneyland. I still enjoy doing the videos though. I know a lot of people don't watch them. And no one made a video response to my video :( haha And my editing program makes me want to scream. So why is it still fun? I don't know :) but it is!
Well I'm going to go brush through my foofy hair. Aloha!
~Hyuu!
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Howdy!
Hello there. How are you? I really don't know what to say on here. Goal has been going pretty well. Still been working out every other day. I need to get it up to every day. My biggest problem is portion control. I love to snack. But still no McDonalds! That's a big feat for me. I'm trying to get Matt to get me a gym membership. I think going to a specific place would help.
If you watched my videos, you know we went to Chuck E. Cheese's the other day. It was quite fun. I don't know why, but I really like their pizza. We forgot our coupons though, so maybe we'll go back. Hailey loved the "kiddie" rides. She had no fear. I love her.
Speaking of my videos. I know that no one really watches them, but I really have been having fun making them. Sometimes it's hard to think of things to film but I think it's getting easier.
Like I said.....I can't think of anything to write, but I thought I'd give a quick update. If I think of anything, I'll just edit it haha
Here are some pictures of Hailey at Chuck E Cheese's. We have some others that the machines themselves too, but since my scanner broke I can't get them up yet.
~hyuu!
If you watched my videos, you know we went to Chuck E. Cheese's the other day. It was quite fun. I don't know why, but I really like their pizza. We forgot our coupons though, so maybe we'll go back. Hailey loved the "kiddie" rides. She had no fear. I love her.
Speaking of my videos. I know that no one really watches them, but I really have been having fun making them. Sometimes it's hard to think of things to film but I think it's getting easier.
Like I said.....I can't think of anything to write, but I thought I'd give a quick update. If I think of anything, I'll just edit it haha
Here are some pictures of Hailey at Chuck E Cheese's. We have some others that the machines themselves too, but since my scanner broke I can't get them up yet.
~hyuu!
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Happy Valentine's Day!
Today is a day for love. Not just love for your significant other, but family and friends too. I wish I would of come up with sending Valentine's to people before it was too late. In spirit of this day, here are a few things that I love.
Orange Juice
Chocolate!
My computer
Shopping
Disney
Romance
....and the bigger things
Mia - my wonderful dog
My friends - as few as that may be
My family - I've recently learned just how important they are to me and want to continue to grow closer to them
Hailey - my wonderful baby girl who is so funny and sweet. I love her so much!
and of course Matt - my loving husband who is the most wonderful man ever. He's funny, smart, and sweet. He really does spoil me more than I deserve. I love you Mathew
Don't forget to tell people that you love them everyday, not just today.
Happy Valentine's Day!
~hyuu!
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Hello!
Well hello there! What's up? Nothing much here. No really...not really anything.
This video thing has been fun. I want to keep going, but they probably won't be put up as often because there really isn't much going on right now. It may pick up because Matt and I want to make a trip to Venice, and within the next 2 weeks we may be headed to Disneyland! But right now it's mainly work, and since Matt takes the car, I'm stuck at home.
On a cool note! There is this really popular YouTuber named Philip DeFranco. He started a new channel called SourceFed. They had people put pictures on their Facebook of people watching their channel. I put one up of Hailey and it made it in their video! If you want to see the video, here's the link. Her photo is at about 1:03 http://youtu.be/nlhZZ8xAO4c
We've been watching PhillyD for a long time, and I about died when I saw her photo flash across the screen.
On the workout front. I haven't missed a day, and I still haven't had any McDonalds. I have, however had maybe....2 cokes. I need to up my workout to every day, but it's hard to get into the groove. I also want to start waking up earlier so I can get my workout done before Hailey wakes up.
So, if you get bored...check out my channel and see my cute little baby dance around the Japanese store www.youtube.com/HelloMyMommy
~hyuu!
This video thing has been fun. I want to keep going, but they probably won't be put up as often because there really isn't much going on right now. It may pick up because Matt and I want to make a trip to Venice, and within the next 2 weeks we may be headed to Disneyland! But right now it's mainly work, and since Matt takes the car, I'm stuck at home.
On a cool note! There is this really popular YouTuber named Philip DeFranco. He started a new channel called SourceFed. They had people put pictures on their Facebook of people watching their channel. I put one up of Hailey and it made it in their video! If you want to see the video, here's the link. Her photo is at about 1:03 http://youtu.be/nlhZZ8xAO4c
We've been watching PhillyD for a long time, and I about died when I saw her photo flash across the screen.
On the workout front. I haven't missed a day, and I still haven't had any McDonalds. I have, however had maybe....2 cokes. I need to up my workout to every day, but it's hard to get into the groove. I also want to start waking up earlier so I can get my workout done before Hailey wakes up.
So, if you get bored...check out my channel and see my cute little baby dance around the Japanese store www.youtube.com/HelloMyMommy
~hyuu!
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Videos?
Hello Everyone!
Well, I'm going to try a new road....if I can remember to keep up with it haha. I've decided to try making a video about our lives. I wanted to make them for family and friends who I don't get to see, so I can include them in my life. Family is important to me. My goal is to take tidbits out of the week and put it together at the end. We'll see how that goes. I have already uploaded an unedited one taker as an experiment. I blubber about and make a fool of myself. It was fun! I ran out of things to say, but I still enjoyed it. Don't make fun of me...too much. :)
~hyuu!
Well, I'm going to try a new road....if I can remember to keep up with it haha. I've decided to try making a video about our lives. I wanted to make them for family and friends who I don't get to see, so I can include them in my life. Family is important to me. My goal is to take tidbits out of the week and put it together at the end. We'll see how that goes. I have already uploaded an unedited one taker as an experiment. I blubber about and make a fool of myself. It was fun! I ran out of things to say, but I still enjoyed it. Don't make fun of me...too much. :)
~hyuu!
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Welcome to February!
Hello there! I can't believe we are already in the second month of the year. Time sure does fly huh.
Well, I thought I'd update this a little while Hailey and Matt are snoozing on the couch. Still have not had McDonalds. Still haven't had any soda. I skipped a couple days working out (TMI warning: felt too lazy on my period), but I'm back on track now! Last time I got myself a snack I got oatmeal cream pies instead of chocolate! Now I just need to work on my portion sizes. That's my main problem.
Matt's been doing a lot better than me. He's such a hard worker! He has a diet plan, goes to the gym, and all that jazz.
Hailey's new favorite thing to do is dive off the stairs onto the couch. It's funny and scary at the same time! She also said her first "clear" word - bye! Well she said buh-bye but same thing. It was clear as a bell. Gotta write that in her baby book.
Got our taxes done and out of the way. Feels good...but never going back to H&R Block again. I'll do them myself reguardless of what Matt says wahaha!
I also need another root canal bad! Remember kids - go to the dentist. Because it'll just be worse the longer you wait.
Feeling like I need a new hairstyle recently. But I am not good at picking styles for myself. Almost everyone I've ever decided to do and had done has turned out crappy. It's usually the best when it's grown out and just normal, but it's so boring! Oh well I guess.
Well, I can't think of anything else to say. Here's a pictuer I just took of the nappy twins.
~hyuu!
Well, I thought I'd update this a little while Hailey and Matt are snoozing on the couch. Still have not had McDonalds. Still haven't had any soda. I skipped a couple days working out (TMI warning: felt too lazy on my period), but I'm back on track now! Last time I got myself a snack I got oatmeal cream pies instead of chocolate! Now I just need to work on my portion sizes. That's my main problem.
Matt's been doing a lot better than me. He's such a hard worker! He has a diet plan, goes to the gym, and all that jazz.
Hailey's new favorite thing to do is dive off the stairs onto the couch. It's funny and scary at the same time! She also said her first "clear" word - bye! Well she said buh-bye but same thing. It was clear as a bell. Gotta write that in her baby book.
Got our taxes done and out of the way. Feels good...but never going back to H&R Block again. I'll do them myself reguardless of what Matt says wahaha!
I also need another root canal bad! Remember kids - go to the dentist. Because it'll just be worse the longer you wait.
Feeling like I need a new hairstyle recently. But I am not good at picking styles for myself. Almost everyone I've ever decided to do and had done has turned out crappy. It's usually the best when it's grown out and just normal, but it's so boring! Oh well I guess.
Well, I can't think of anything else to say. Here's a pictuer I just took of the nappy twins.
~hyuu!
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